Does God look down upon introverts? Or do churches, like much of society, embrace extroverts to a fault?
I was very into church through out high school. I went every Wednesday and twice on Sunday and I was very active in my youth department. I even went to a bible college for a year. Yet I never felt like I was a “good” christian.
There are many ways that I felt uncomfortable in church. The obvious, as demonstrated in the picture, was all the “fellowship”. Every time we were expected to greet and chit chat and talk to everyone! If a new person was “saved” or joined the church the we were expected to shake hands and introduce ourselves. There was never a shortage of pot-lucks. (I was Baptist.) Not to mention all the times I was called upon to pray in front of the entire congregation. Talk about anxiety. All that was a challenge.
However, that’s not what I’m talking about. I’m talking about the emphasis that is placed on evangelism. For those of you that don’t know, part of the christian faith is that you must spread Christianity. You have to talk to people about Jesus and lead them to salvation, as they say. The church I went to had no shortage of places you could help out in the church. There was room for everyone to contribute. However, everyone must spread the gospel. There was no exception for anyone. There was a lot of pressure.
It was never overtly said, but I definitely felt it; I wasn’t as good of a christian as all the other teens that brought their friends to church.
I only managed to talk to someone about it once. And it was one of the hardest things I have ever done. Think about it. I’m a shy introvert having to talk to someone about a very awkward and potentially controversial topic. Then the guy avoided me after our conversation. It was something that I just couldn’t do.
It was never overtly said, but I definitely felt it; I wasn’t as good of a christian as all the other teens that brought their friends to church. But all my friends I knew from church. I had a few acquaintances at school and I was suppose to talk to them about Jesus? Not going to happen.
I understand that it’s part of Christianity. I know it’s never going to change. I’m only saying that maybe the church isn’t the best place for introverts. At least it’s not for me. Or perhaps not an introvert thing, maybe just being shy.